Well? Who the fuck is Bean Randolph?

questionmaroI’m in my 40’s. I’m a lesbian. I’m black. I’m probably a misanthrope. I love the simple side of life. I’m lazy. I hate myself most of the time. I’m shy. I’m reserved. I’m quiet. I’m an introvert. I spend a few days of the month being depressed. I wish I drank. I’m afraid to die. I play video games. I spend too much time online. I’m alone. I’m not lonely. I daydream a lot. I dream of being a writer. I dream of flying. I like taking sleeping pills in the morning. I work overnights. I suck at my job. I’m a plain Jane. I like being a plain Jane. I’ve wasted my life. I’m damaged. I’m never going to be okay. I don’t know where it all went wrong. I’m not a good person. I am Bean Randolph.