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45 days: day(s) 23 & 24

I did not blog yesterday. I fell off the wagon. I weighed myself last night and was back up to 179.6lbs. it made me so upset that I skipped the gym, had dinner, took a sleeping pill and called it a day. I just didn’t want to think about it. Counting calories is driving me insane. I’m stopping for now until I can do it without obsessing over it.

Tonight I went back to the gym, but I’m not going to weigh myself. I don’t want to have another break.

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45 days: day 22

Ugh. Not good. Not good. I lost it last night and ate a lot of stuff I should not have eaten. Cookies. Crunch Berries cereal. I am not happy with myself. Dammit! Couldn’t make it a week. I have to find a way to get through the nights off from work. They mess me up.

My weight is 179.6. I gained 1.2lbs since the last weigh in. Overall for my calorie counting week I lost a total of 2.8lbs. That’s not bad, but it could have been better.

45 days: day 20

Last night I broke down and had some cookies. I was craving bad and just gave in. There were some Lorna Doone cookies in my cabinet and I went to town. There were 6 cookies in the pack…210 cals. I was within my calorie limit, but still felt guilty.

I went to the gym and burned 221 cals. My weight came in at 179.4. Lost about 4oz since the last weigh in. Very happy that I am still in the 170’s. We’ll see what tomorrow brings. Another night off from work and o more cookies in my cabinet.

45 days: day 19

I WANT SOME COOKIES!

This sucks. I hate it. But it has to be done or I am going to be overweight forever. Anyway, day 5 of counting calories. It isn’t horrible, but it is annoying. I ended up slightly losing my mind last night and chewed an insane amount of gum to keep from gorging on cookies. I did eat a serving of Tostito round tortilla chips. I was within my 1,200 calorie limit, but it still felt like cheating.

Since it’s my night off from work I went to the gym earlier than usual and burned 254 cals. I weighed myself and am at 179.8lbs. Yay! 170’s.

 

45 days: day 17

Wow. I can’t believe I am 17 days in already. Day 3 counting calories. I think I’m getting used to it. I was sick most of the night tho. I think what I chose to eat last night was not sitting well with me. I also have a headache. Grrr…

I kept my cals under 1,200 today. So far under that when I tried to complete my food diary entry for today in My Fitness Pal, I was issued a warning that it was too low. It’s at 996 calories consumed plus I burned 233 cals at the gym. I think there is some fruit in the cabinet that I can eat to bump it up to the limit. I also have Oreos, but unfortunately, they are my enemy now.

I weighed myself and am currently at 181.6lbs. My night off is on Wednesday. I’m worried about it. I am fine controlling my eating while working, but being home all night may cause a problem. I hope not.

pointless kik rant because i’m annoyed

I started another chat room on kik. This one is for single lesbians who are looking for more than just a hook up. I posted on craigslist looking for members.

laughinghomer

You are right to laugh at me, Homer.

I have 14 members so far and as usual not a single lesbian among them. Well, except me. I’m really starting think that I am the only actual lesbian in existence if craigslist is anything to go by. Every single time I post I get men and married bi women messaging me to join. No lesbians.

This was one of the messages I received in reference to the part of my ad that states people who want to join need to be verified. This is exactly how it was sent to me.

“verfiy this 10.5 inches and luv every inch that you will be recving”

Off to a great start!

Women on craigslist are becoming just as bad. I added a woman to the chat and then messaged her to let her know she’d been added. She thanked me and then a couple of minutes later she sent me a picture of her ass. Jesus Christ. I fucking hate that.

I didn’t ask for a picture of her ass. Do these people know that Google images exist? I can look at all types of asses whenever I feel like it. And her ass has the same effect those do…NONE. Random asses, tits and vaginas don’t do anything for me and I let her know that. A little harsh? Perhaps, but I was just not in the mood to deal. It happens way too much. I’d had a guy the day before message me a picture of his ass in a woman’s thong. I was still peeved from that.

I wanted this room to be more of a dating hub. You know, for people who were NOT looking for fuck buddies, casual sex, or hook-ups, but who were looking for actual relationship possibilities. I stated that, very clearly, in the ad. Sadly, I went into the room last night and the women were talking about how horny they were and posting pictures of their tits and asses. Sigh.

I’m not trying to be a prude or anything, but c’mon. This is not what this particular room is for. I have another failure on my hands.

 

45 days: day 16

16th day of taking the supplements and the 2nd day of counting calories. Today my caloric intake was 1,135 and I burned 219 cals at the gym. I weighed myself and am at 182.0lbs.

I am doing ok fighting off the urge to eat when I’m not really hungry. I hope I can keep this up for the rest of the week. As long as there are no interruptions I will be fine. I just have to stay focused and on schedule.