weight loss

45 days: day(s) 23 & 24

I did not blog yesterday. I fell off the wagon. I weighed myself last night and was back up to 179.6lbs. it made me so upset that I skipped the gym, had dinner, took a sleeping pill and called it a day. I just didn’t want to think about it. Counting calories is driving me insane. I’m stopping for now until I can do it without obsessing over it.

Tonight I went back to the gym, but I’m not going to weigh myself. I don’t want to have another break.

45 days: day 22

Ugh. Not good. Not good. I lost it last night and ate a lot of stuff I should not have eaten. Cookies. Crunch Berries cereal. I am not happy with myself. Dammit! Couldn’t make it a week. I have to find a way to get through the nights off from work. They mess me up.

My weight is 179.6. I gained 1.2lbs since the last weigh in. Overall for my calorie counting week I lost a total of 2.8lbs. That’s not bad, but it could have been better.

45 days: day 21

3 weeks I have been taking the GNC Women’s Ultra Mega Energy & Metabolism supplements. It has helped curb my appetite a bit and that is enough for me. Especially at work. I am on day 6, I think, of counting calories and that has been going well. It would go a lot better if I didn’t obsess about it. It’s making me miserable. I can have a cookie, chips, a sandwich or ice cream if I want, as long as I stay within my set calorie limit, but I keep denying myself those things because I feel like it is cheating.  Sigh.

I went to the gym tonight and did 45 minutes on the treadmill, burning 314 calories. I weighed myself and am at 178.8. Who would have thunk it? Not overeating, counting calories and going to the gym is helping me lose wight. It’s a miracle!

I still want cookies.

45 days: day 20

Last night I broke down and had some cookies. I was craving bad and just gave in. There were some Lorna Doone cookies in my cabinet and I went to town. There were 6 cookies in the pack…210 cals. I was within my calorie limit, but still felt guilty.

I went to the gym and burned 221 cals. My weight came in at 179.4. Lost about 4oz since the last weigh in. Very happy that I am still in the 170’s. We’ll see what tomorrow brings. Another night off from work and o more cookies in my cabinet.

45 days: day 19

I WANT SOME COOKIES!

This sucks. I hate it. But it has to be done or I am going to be overweight forever. Anyway, day 5 of counting calories. It isn’t horrible, but it is annoying. I ended up slightly losing my mind last night and chewed an insane amount of gum to keep from gorging on cookies. I did eat a serving of Tostito round tortilla chips. I was within my 1,200 calorie limit, but it still felt like cheating.

Since it’s my night off from work I went to the gym earlier than usual and burned 254 cals. I weighed myself and am at 179.8lbs. Yay! 170’s.

 

45 days: day 18

Feels like I was just submitting an entry. Time goes by so fast. Day 18 of the supplements and day 4 of counting calories. Still doing it. My calorie intake is going to be the same as yesterday because I’m eating the same thing I ate yesterday.  No harm in that.

I hit the gym to do 30 minutes on the treadmill and I burned 245 cals. I keep upping the speed and incline. But only if I feel like I can take it. If I start getting too exhausted I will take it down a notch. I don’t want to be miserable.

Weight-wise I am currently at 180.6lbs. Chipping away at it.

I am still worried about tonight because it is my night off. I will be craving cookies like a mad woman. And having cookies would not be so bad if I could eat just one or two. Not twelve.

45 days: day 17

Wow. I can’t believe I am 17 days in already. Day 3 counting calories. I think I’m getting used to it. I was sick most of the night tho. I think what I chose to eat last night was not sitting well with me. I also have a headache. Grrr…

I kept my cals under 1,200 today. So far under that when I tried to complete my food diary entry for today in My Fitness Pal, I was issued a warning that it was too low. It’s at 996 calories consumed plus I burned 233 cals at the gym. I think there is some fruit in the cabinet that I can eat to bump it up to the limit. I also have Oreos, but unfortunately, they are my enemy now.

I weighed myself and am currently at 181.6lbs. My night off is on Wednesday. I’m worried about it. I am fine controlling my eating while working, but being home all night may cause a problem. I hope not.