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45 days: day 22

Ugh. Not good. Not good. I lost it last night and ate a lot of stuff I should not have eaten. Cookies. Crunch Berries cereal. I am not happy with myself. Dammit! Couldn’t make it a week. I have to find a way to get through the nights off from work. They mess me up.

My weight is 179.6. I gained 1.2lbs since the last weigh in. Overall for my calorie counting week I lost a total of 2.8lbs. That’s not bad, but it could have been better.

45 days: day 21

3 weeks I have been taking the GNC Women’s Ultra Mega Energy & Metabolism supplements. It has helped curb my appetite a bit and that is enough for me. Especially at work. I am on day 6, I think, of counting calories and that has been going well. It would go a lot better if I didn’t obsess about it. It’s making me miserable. I can have a cookie, chips, a sandwich or ice cream if I want, as long as I stay within my set calorie limit, but I keep denying myself those things because I feel like it is cheating.  Sigh.

I went to the gym tonight and did 45 minutes on the treadmill, burning 314 calories. I weighed myself and am at 178.8. Who would have thunk it? Not overeating, counting calories and going to the gym is helping me lose wight. It’s a miracle!

I still want cookies.

pointless kik rant because i’m annoyed

I started another chat room on kik. This one is for single lesbians who are looking for more than just a hook up. I posted on craigslist looking for members.

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You are right to laugh at me, Homer.

I have 14 members so far and as usual not a single lesbian among them. Well, except me. I’m really starting think that I am the only actual lesbian in existence if craigslist is anything to go by. Every single time I post I get men and married bi women messaging me to join. No lesbians.

This was one of the messages I received in reference to the part of my ad that states people who want to join need to be verified. This is exactly how it was sent to me.

“verfiy this 10.5 inches and luv every inch that you will be recving”

Off to a great start!

Women on craigslist are becoming just as bad. I added a woman to the chat and then messaged her to let her know she’d been added. She thanked me and then a couple of minutes later she sent me a picture of her ass. Jesus Christ. I fucking hate that.

I didn’t ask for a picture of her ass. Do these people know that Google images exist? I can look at all types of asses whenever I feel like it. And her ass has the same effect those do…NONE. Random asses, tits and vaginas don’t do anything for me and I let her know that. A little harsh? Perhaps, but I was just not in the mood to deal. It happens way too much. I’d had a guy the day before message me a picture of his ass in a woman’s thong. I was still peeved from that.

I wanted this room to be more of a dating hub. You know, for people who were NOT looking for fuck buddies, casual sex, or hook-ups, but who were looking for actual relationship possibilities. I stated that, very clearly, in the ad. Sadly, I went into the room last night and the women were talking about how horny they were and posting pictures of their tits and asses. Sigh.

I’m not trying to be a prude or anything, but c’mon. This is not what this particular room is for. I have another failure on my hands.

 

45 days: day 16

16th day of taking the supplements and the 2nd day of counting calories. Today my caloric intake was 1,135 and I burned 219 cals at the gym. I weighed myself and am at 182.0lbs.

I am doing ok fighting off the urge to eat when I’m not really hungry. I hope I can keep this up for the rest of the week. As long as there are no interruptions I will be fine. I just have to stay focused and on schedule.

45 days: day 15

I’m going to write this before I start playing video games because I will forget. Today I started counting calories. My goal is stay 1,200 cals or lower. According to My Fitness Pal my calorie intake for today was 1,313 calories. Dammit! Eh, It’s fine. I’m not going to feel discouraged because of it. I hit the gym and burned 215 cals. I weighed myself and came in at 182.4lbs.

45 days: day 9

Day 9? Really? That was fast. I took the supplements and nothing. I have not felt an increase in energy, but I have found it easier to not visit the vending machine at work. That’s a plus, but I’m not sure it’s because of the pills.

My issue now is with snacking at home. I bought some Pepperidge Farm Chessman cookies the other night and destroyed them in a matter of hours. Absolutely delicious, but not good for what I’m trying to do.

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I wish I had some right now!

In time. In time. I will learn to enjoy these in moderation.

45 days: day 8

I took the supplements and have not experienced any kind of side effects today. It’s official- I am blaming the nausea I had earlier this week on PMS.

No gym. No weigh in.

Tomorrow I will start a gym schedule of 4 days a week. Now to figure out an eating schedule. When you work overnights it turns everything upside down. I’m thinking- weigh myself at 5pm. Eat dinner at 5:30-6pm. Lunch (or snack) 11:30pm and breakfast after the gym, around 5am. We’ll see how long this sticks.